If there's one thing I have learned from my explorations of the "indie"/"artsy" literary world, it is that the scene is predominantly an intransigent party that exists for the single purpose of inserting one's genitalia into another's mouth. That, and party has also reached capacity. The sentences I have written thus far are not "edgy" enough, they're not incredibly short or incredibly long, and not every word has some obscure rule of Capitalizing Every Word. My writing is to tell stories and to show a scene and to show dialogue and allow the reader to be transported to the world of my characters. It is, first and foremost, to entertain. When people will read my book, it won't change their perception of the world or themselves. There may be an epiphany, but I hope it doesn't change who they are. I'm not nearly conceited enough to think that my writing, nor my worldview, is the correct or most morally valid one. I'm not writing out of some need to project myself onto others' consciousness. People who do that are known as evangelicals here in the South, and it isn't something I strive for. I love all sorts of people in their mannerisms and quirks; in their loves and their hates; in their passions and their lethargies. The purpose that the majority of the world will pick up a book isn't to be told that they are right or wrong -- it is to be entertained. I don't want to lose sight of that.
I am constantly told through the enternits that I am not good enough, smart enough, deep enough to be a writer. Readers are, as the enternits inform me, much like Remora, preoccupied with latching onto the nipple or taint of any "indie" reader who is not white and/or has hellacious sideburns (man or woman) and that it would be much better for the Starbucks latte sippers and beanie-wearing hipsters if I just give up my attempt at "art." It would in the end provide much less angst for everyone involved -- from myself, to the four or five lamentable sets of eyes that had to flit across my pages.*
To me, there is nothing worse in this world than being part of that "misunderstood" orgy of "indie" writers. Do I say this because, secretly, I want in? I don't think so. I think I have a natural inclination towards fineries such as nice watches, polo shirts, and pressed pairs of khakis. I like my hair short and clean, and only a sprinkle of facial hair every once and a while. My room is clean (mostly) and I speak clearly and don't do drugs. I'm not a practicing Christian, but I'm not an Atheist either. My ideal situation is in a monogamous relationship with a woman and a dog and two kids and a white picket fence where I would write in the front bay window and leave only to go get food, pick my children up from sports, or to the nearest polling place to vote for my favorite Republican candidate. I will never be a part of their world because I choose to be different from them. I choose to live a life of sanitation and of sunlight, and not of dingy holes-in-the-wall, greasy fedoras, and bong resin.
With that being said, there is something I do appreciate about indie meanderings masquerading as contemplative thought: their writings will, every once and a while produce a diamond. "The Human Condition" is a favorite topic of theirs, for which a wide variety of definitions has been slapped onto it. The Human Condition is about as nebulous a term as you can have, but intrinsically it has something to do with our innate need to destroy. I don't think that we would have this endless well of psuedo-prophetic rambling without the original inquiry of what is human? The question is immediately vague and worthless, but I love it so much because it helped me get through college. There, see? It's not all bad.
Now if you'll excuse me, I have some selling out to do.
*Maybe a truly unfortunate soul had already lost an eye in a barroom brawl, pepper shaker incident, or warring with pirates. This would, of course, put the "eye-count" down to a mere 3 1/2 - 4 1/2 sets. However, there is something inherently "indie" about an eye patch, so it would perhaps raise my overall viewership closer to six -- two of which may even be terry-cloth headbanded teenagers who write angsty poems in their Moleskines while smoking marijuana.